Kayson Tyler Osborne

Mommy found out she was pregnant with you in Dec. 2007. I was excited, but yet very very scared, you see I lost your older brother Aiden at 15wks 1 day on March 14th 2007. So needless to say I was worried I would lose you too.

Alot of women were pregnant, so it took some time to get into the doctors. I finally got to go for my 1st appt on Jan. 5th 2008. To make sure I was pregnant. I went in to the docs. everything seemed fine. They guessed me to be 13wks. They scheduled me for an actual appt with the doc on Jan. 23rd 2008. This was gonna be the full check up. So in I went on the 23rd, again everything seemed to be fine. Based on the calculations I was 15 1/2wks along. They had me do a 24hr urine due to my previous preeclampsia problems. And I also got the tripple screen test done to test for abnormalities. Not that those mattered.

Well they also set me up for an u/s on Feb. 18th to check for growth and dates and stuff. YAY I would finally get to see my baby. His heart rate was in the 150s at that appt and I left happy and excited and coudn't wait til the 18th.

Well they called me 1 wk later and asked me to come in on the 7th of February for a level 2 u/s. Ok yay I would see baby sooner.

So the 7th came, I was really excited I would be hopefully finding out what sex my baby was. I even took my 4 yr old daughter in with me. She was also excited and kept telling me baby was a girl. HEHE We were hoping.

Well instead of being taken back to the u/s room, I was being put in a small room, where a genetics doctor came in to talk to me. I didn't know what was going on. They hadn't told me anything. So he proceded to tell me that by my tests that my baby had a 1 in 17 chance of having Trisomy 18. Which I was told was a fatal chromisomal disorder. The baby if made it to full term and birth, had a 90% chance of only living from 1wk- 2months of age. And a 10% chance of seeing their 1st birthday. And then passing away after. I was in total shock. This can't be happening to me!!

My head was spinning. They then said they will know more based on the u/s and that is why I am having a level 2 done. When I was told by the nurse on the phone it was only for the growth and stuff.

They then took me and my daughter to the u/s room. And the tech placed the doppler on my belly, and it was very quiet. My daughter kept saying every now and then "I see it mommy, it's a girl!!" The tech was looking hard, and didn't say anythng. She then got up and said she had to get the doctor. The doctor and a nurse came in, the nurse took my daughter out of the room. Which scared me to death. The doctor then proceded to tell me that "the baby didn't have a heartbeat" I said what? She said "your baby has passed away". I began to sob and shake.

She said I am soo sorry. It looks as thought the baby had 3 major heart defects ( Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, PDA and Double Outlet Right Ventricular Septal Defect), she said the baby had clenched fists, overlapped fingers, and choroid plexus cysts on his brain, tell tale signs of the Trisomy 18. She said she was almost certain that is what he passed away from.

She said I could go home and talk to my husband and call them back and pick a date up to 1wk from that day to be induced. I said ok. She left me there to sob and sob.

So I went home. I got in the car, my husband asked so what are we having, I then broke down and sobbed and saying that the baby had died. I told him all the doctor had told me. He was in shock too. I called the doctor 2 days later and picked Feb. 13th for my baby's arrival.

So they had me come in on the 12th at 5:30pm to get things going. Well I had already begun to bleed and have contractions. I labored all night and at 10:05am on Feb. 13th 2008 My still baby BOY was born into the world. It turned out when he was born, my water broke, but instead it was a ton of blood, what he ultimately died of was a Full Placenta Abruption. He would have passed from the other problems, but this is what took him from me early. He was soo tiny, yet soo perfect. He weighed in at 4.5oz and was 5 in long. I miss him soo much and he will always remain in my heart. R.I.P. now my little angel. You will never be forgotten.